I’m constantly wondering about my future. Where will I be? Will I get sick again? I fear the shit out of getting sick again. Even worse, having a seizure while holding my daughter. What if something happened to her? I would die. I would want to die. So far I’ve been completely healthy and fine; I pray that it stays that way forever.
I am almost done with my semester, I only have four classes left before this semester is over. I’m pretty sure I will get an A in all my classes except for Spanish which I will get a C in.. hopefully. Depending on how well I do on my final.. but we’ll see. I’m not too worried about the other finals, just need to study.
Kaylin is amazing.. she takes my breath away. We were laying down on my bed tonight; fell asleep face to face. She kept staring at me so I would fake sleeping, and she would just keep staring at me. Then she would close her eyes and I would just stare at her.. it kept going back and forth.. so sweet.
Nothing is really going on..
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What can I say? It’s been awhile tumblr and I am most likely only on here due to my strong desire to not do homework. So much homework It will never end. At least.. not for the next seven years.
My little girl is quite amazing.. I would ask her how old she is but she can’t really talk yet. I think its 15 months or 16 months. I hate doing that whole 15 months thing. Why can’t I just say she’s one?
She walks.. boy can she walk and she can run. I love her. Absolutely, completely am consumed by her. She is beautiful and man.. even though I know everything I’m doing is for her I still miss her like crazy while I’m in school or I’m working.
It is so hard and it is only five weeks into this crazy semester. I have a year left at grossmont.. then hopefully onto state. When I get into state I have to worry about how I’m going to pay for it. Pricey little shit.
Also about taking care of my debt.. but that’s not my focus right now.
OH yeah, note to self.
Stay single until I have my B.S. Maybe even my masters. I don’t wanna date anyone. Absolutely no penis allowed. Yeah. No distractions. No bullshit! I think this would go for friends too. Sorry but this mama has no time for your drama. At all. Nope. So if you get pissed at me or I get pissed at you, honestly i would just say, “get over it or get over this friendship”
but nothing is getting in my way of getting where I know I’m meant to be for my daughter.
I am blessed. <3
Life is amazing.
Killin it in school.
Couldn’t ask for more..
Maybe a job quickly!
I wonder where kaylin & I will be in a couple years?
"Talking politics with friends is like going through an obese mans laundry who doesn’t quite wipe correctly. It’s dirty, and you shouldn’t do it."